Rules of Not Dating

Ok I know how completely insane this probably sounds but I can't take it anymore not only do I need to vent about this but I also need some other opinions. See it started a couple months ago, my life was normal. I went to work everyday and complained about it everynight I was a content, strong woman. I was independent. I didn't need a man by my side to prove anything see, I had been through a terrible breakup and I was still coping a bit from that when my grandmother suddenly passed away. I'll be honest with you I didn't know how to feel, There was a young man in attendence at her funeral due to the fact that she was in the local fire dept. he was a member himself and apparently I look good vunerable, because the day after my grandmother's service he started talking to me then we had this fantastic "love affair" I still talk to him and I still see him just not nearly engough anymore then his ex girlfriend decides to invite him to her birthday party? and he goes? I'm probably over reacting but my god! you picked me up at MY Grandmother's funeral and now u ingnore me for your ex whom you told me was too clingly seems like I can't win and the worse part is I did get attached he's smart, funny and sweet but apparently it doesn't matter. Here's the lesson I've learned, no matter what never let anyone, especially a man take you, that strong, independt woman is still in there and hey maybe if you are able to get past the fear that he is going to dump you for her then that side might show through more. I refuse to let him take everything from me.

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'Waiting for Forever' star Tom Sturridge got part by reading script off Rob Pattinson's floor

'Waiting for Forever' star Tom Sturridge got part by reading script off Rob Pattinson's floor
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Monday, April 12th 2010, 4:00 AM

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Call it serendipity - or poor cleaning skills: Tom Sturridge, here with Rachel Bilson, says he got the part in 'Waiting for Forever' by reading the script off Rob Pattinson's floor.
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Tom Sturridge has his buddy Rob Pattinson to thank for his most recent movie role.
At Saturday's New York premiere of his latest flick, "Waiting for Forever," Sturridge revealed director James Keach originally wanted the "Twilight" star for the part. "I saw the script on the floor of Rob's apartment when I was staying on his sofa," Sturridge said.
But the equally hunky Brit knew he could play the part of a hopeless romantic just as well as Pattinson – and even top him.
"I thought to myself, 'I could do this better than he could!', so I called up my agent the next morning. They were kind enough to let me audition and apparently they saw something in me."
And while producer Trevor Albert agrees Sturridge was perfect for the part, he admits that he and Keach were a little taken aback when they got his phone call.
"We got a call from his agent who told us Tom loved the script, and we were like, 'We don't remember sending him one.' Finally, we were worn down and just " said, 'All right, let's let him come in.'
Keach would only laugh, "There was definitely a little bit of serendipity going on there."


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Poems that I want to turn into songs...

poem 1
you left me here alone, do you feel sorry, do you want to be reborn? Forgiveness is divine, so I will wait and I will give you time. I know you acted with your heart even if your lips never did part, See I know your heart as well if not better than all of your other parts and I know true love as well, so I know how it felt. :True Love is stubborn and irrational but in it's own right it's nothing short of a miracle. This is why stubborn as we both are, we shall never again part. my life disappears like the sun on a rainy day, wheneveryou are away. The touch of your skin, as soft as a whisper of wind. The scent of your breath is something I'll keep even in death...... END I don't know I've got alot more and its scary to put them out there but I will post

The Hunt

I am currently out job hunting and in this recession it's proving to be quite the challenge I don't have a degree and the only thing I know alot about is Twilight. I live in a very small town. I have a job but it's degrading and I have offically lost all of my self esteam I'm trying so hard. I don't know how to continue. I want to do something that I love and I want to be happy in who I am as a person. I am afraid. I mean starting something new is always frighten I hope I can figure something out. I would love to work from home and then blog about Twilight and also I could babysit my nephews more often. I'm not sure which path to actually take so I'm just looking.